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A Dream

I had a dream about 15 years ago.
A woman wearing a gold headpiece and with feathers in it, led me. She looked egyptian to me, but I had no idea really because I was never the scholarly sort and in my conscious memory couldnt recall if she was someone important. I was a bit upset because I had hoped in my dreams to see Mary one day. Even though I had already left the Catholic church many years previously, I still hoped I would have a ‘vision’ of some sort, to help prove that there was SOMETHING there. If I could have that vision, I would go back to the Catholic Church.
So anyhow, this woman with a golden headress with a feather on each side of it (Sometimes her headress changed into the head of a bird), took me to this place. It was a building. A great domed building. There was a moat around it. A bridge lay before us and we walked into this building. Although the outside was large, it was not abnormally so, it was like a planetarium, one would expect to see a giant telescope poking through the roof. BUT, when I got inside, I saw that the inside was immense. It was… infinite. The universe was in that building. There was gold etchings, stained glass, shiny, beautiful, glowing things. It was beautiful. I dont remember what the woman said to me, but I remember feeling as though I had witnessed all of the universe in that building. The ceiling was visible, with carvings and art and glowing gold accents, but I knew that if I climbed high, and reached the ceiling, it would continue being out of my grasp. It was breathtakingly amazing.The dream was many years ago and I didnt think much of it at the time, except to be a bit disappointed that it was not Mary that had appeared to me, or Jesus, but a beautiful woman with feathers.
Recently though, as I discovered Gnosticism, and the passage from the Gospel of Thomas that says:
Jesus said, “If those who lead you say to you, ‘See, the kingdom is in the sky,’ then the birds of the sky will precede you. If they say to you, ‘It is in the sea,’ then the fish will precede you. Rather, the kingdom is inside of you, and it is outside of you.
I suddenly remembered this dream. And I realized that I was being shown that the Kingdom of God resides within. When I recalled this dream, it took me aback. I remembered the feeling of eternity in that golden domed ‘planetarium’.
Also, recently I have been reading about Egyptian spirituality etc., and I came across Ma’at. Bells went off… ok, not really BELLS, but once again, my dream came back to me.
I could swear that the woman in my dream was Ma’at. The concept of Truth, Balance and Order personified. Why Ma’at and not Sophia, or Mary…. I don’t know. Maybe if I had seen Sophia, I would have assumed she was Mary. I would have found the ‘proof’ that the Roman Catholic church was the only church, because I had prayed for visions of Mary for so long. And then perhaps I would have just run back to the Catholic church, not understanding the Christ, just sitting there in the pews like before, taking it all extremely literally without trying to build my own direct connection, without learning all the things I needed to learn these past years. I needed to see it presented neutrally. In a way that would allow me to progress, not associated with a brick and mortar building.
Now, years later, that dream has found it’s purpose. To unite and link together the different bits and peices- to help me understand where I am right now. So odd…. to have a dream fifteen years ago that just RECENTLY served to help me understand that the path I am on now, is the right path.
The Kingdom is Within.